Growing Up & Apart

by Fighting Seasons

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released 15 March 2014

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Fighting Seasons Somerville, New Jersey

We are Fighting Seasons from Somerville, NJ. We released our self-titled EP In 2012 and released our debut full-length "Growing Up & Apart" in 2014.

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Track Name: Self Destruction and Social Networking
Given 140 characters to pour your fucking heart out,
I'm honored that you chose to bitch about me,
Now honestly there's nothing else I'd rather see,
Than some song lyrics you wrote to let me know that I'm not what you want me to be.

Shut up I fucking hate you but I've never needed anyone half as much as you,
Get out of my life just for the night and promise me you'll be back in the morning.

This passive aggressive bullshit we still willingly put ourselves through only serves to fuel the drama I don't need,
Self loathing in the public eye lost all it's charm after 8th grade but it shows us all what kind of life you lead.
And you won't take back the thing you said,
And you just won't stop bringing my best friends to your bed,
I know it's all a game to you.

Shut up I fucking hate you but I've never needed anyone half as much as you,
Get out of my life just for the night and promise me you'll be back in the morning.
Shut up I fucking hate you but I've never needed anyone half as much as you,
Get out of my life just for the night and promise me you'll never show your ass here again.
Track Name: Growing Up
Well I guess I've finally figured out how all the things you said to me make up for my lack of sleep at night,
And it's true I've been known to obsess over the little things but I can't forget the way you looked at me,
As if the world could crash down in front of us, and we still would've felt the same.

And I think we all know where this is headed,
And I'll give it three more drags until Im head over heels for you,
And I won't forget the way she said it,
And how the light in her eyes vaguely resembles the stars
I watch on my roof at night with my best friends,
I hope that someday we share that view.

Well I guess I've finally figured out how all the things you said to me make up for my lack of sleep at night,
And it's true I've been known to obsess over the little things but I can't forget the way you looked at me,
No I can't forget anything.

And I know things don't always work out,
But it's not your fault that I'm not in a place where I can do this,
This "could have been" mind has got me thinking maybe I'm better off alone at least for now.
Trust me I know the future scares the living shit out of me too,
But I'll try to get my shit straight,
And I promise I'll never live to regret as long as you don't give up on me.

Well I guess I've finally figured out how all the things you said to me make up for my lack of sleep at night,
And it's true I've been known to obsess over the little things but I can't forget the way you looked at me,
No I can't forget anything.
Track Name: I Wear My Heart On My Cargo Pockets
Lately I've been making pro-con lists for everything,
And I'm not surprised that they've been predominately one-sided
But I still like to weigh my options to keep what I want in sight,
Sometimes I wonder if it matters.
The other day I pulled out boxes of notes from my closet,
I think I read close to two years of my life in colored ink,
And it's strange to see how different three years of space can make you,
But I'm proud of who I am.

Don't let me know that it's not good enough,
This is my year.

I think you know that I still think about it,
Just goes to show nows not the time for second chances,
And I hate what this year has done,
I've just never felt this cliche but I need to take some time to find myself.

And I'm not afraid of what I can't change I'm terrified of what I can,
My fear that keeps me on my toes six feet beneath the ground,
I'm afraid this image plastered to the back of my eyelids
Won't be the same in six months 'cause you know it never is.

Don't let me know that it's not good enough,
This is my year.

I think you know that I still think about it,
Just goes to show nows not the time for second chances,
And I hate what this year has done,
I've just never felt this cliche but I need to take some time to find myself.

And I'm not scared of what I am
Braver than last year
And I'm not scared of what I am
Braver than last fucking year.

I think you know that I still think about it,
Just goes to show nows not the time for second chances,
And I hate what this year has done,
I've just never felt this cliche but I need to take some time to find myself.
Track Name: Gold
She wears her heart in a little glass case,
With the code to unlock it always written on her face,
The key is on the table for anyone to take,
Does she realize her loves are always fake?
He saw her offer and took it as his own,
Turns out he wasn't truthful I guess she should have known,
She feels she's going crazy too weak to take a stand,
Now he's run off with her heart still in his hand.

There's a girl I know she says she's hanging on,
But under sparkling eyes I see there's something going wrong,
I can't let it go how do I let her know?
Her life is worth more to me than gold.

She woke up from dreaming about a better place,
Found tracks of her makeup were smeared down her face,
She doesn't feel like trying her smiles don't exist,
Does she realize how much they will be missed?
Struck by depression and lack of control,
Fed up with these battles she's done with this war,
She picks herself up she knows she's okay,
She forgets about her thoughts of yesterday.

There's a girl I know she says she's hanging on,
But under sparkling eyes I see there's something going wrong,
I can't let it go how do I let her know?
Her life is worth more to me than gold.

Another fight she says he's right,
She said she's moving on and I should do the same,
How can I find the words to tell her...

There's a girl I know she says she's hanging on,
But under sparkling eyes I see there's something going wrong,
I can't let it go how do I let her know?
Her life is worth more to me than gold.
Track Name: Dark Green
I swear it feels like I've been here before a million times,
Holed up in my room I'm waiting for anything at all,
I get so sick of thinking nothing ever goes my way,
I end up wasting hours hoping that eventually things are gonna change.

Everything that's happened these past 4 years has made me into what I am,
Despite the pain despite the bruises I can never take it back,
I've spent my entire life in this town it's become more to me than you'll ever know,
But I think it's time to finally move on,
We're moving on.

If you gave me the change I'd fuck it up a million times,
I'm tired of falling for all the same tricks I'm losing my mind,
This could have been my chance to change and just start over again,
But I still feel like that same awkward kid and nothing works out,
Will things ever change?

Everything that's happened these past 4 years has made me into what I am,
Despite the pain despite the bruises I can never take it back,
I've spent my entire life in this town it's become more to me than you'll ever know,
But I think it's time to finally move on,
We're moving on.
Track Name: Roof Tops
I wish I could just get away but it's never that easy,
I wish you'd stay another day but we've all got shit to deal with on our own.
Thought I'd finish what I started back when everything made sense,
I've missed so many chances here and this songs my last defense,
And I'm waiting for everything to fall back in line,
And Im wishing that everything would be clear to me again.

I don't like what I've become,
Some angry cynic fucked up kid,
I'm broken beyond repair,
I called for help and no-one was there,
I keep on looking back,
Everything was so much simpler but now I'm up at 2:30 writing songs for myself,
I'll never be the same.
Now I'm gone.

Now would you look at me I always have so much to say but no way to say it,
This is shit I never had to worry about back then.
The words I tried so hard to find slip away like sand in my fingers,
I get lost among a million thoughts that never leave.
Will I end up like them?
Will I end up like you?

I don't like what I've become,
Some angry cynic fucked up kid,
I'm broken beyond repair,
I called for help and no-one was there,
I keep on looking back,
Everything was so much simpler but now I'm up at 2:30 writing songs for myself,
I'll never be the same.
Now I'm gone.

Well I wish I could just get away but it's never that easy...

Is this what I've become?
I never thought I'd get this weak but,
Things are looking up,
Sure it pours but the sun still shines on,
If I keep on looking back,
Then I'll never move ahead I'll stay rotting here I should enjoy the fall before I freeze to death in another winter,
I'm getting better.
Track Name: View From The Back Burner
And it's about time for a new addiction,
'Cause the taste of this one just reminds me of you,
And the space that you needed but never follow through on,
I know exactly what I am to you.
And maybe it's not what you intended but these things stick with me,
I'v never been good at letting go the bridges I've burned,
And I can't keep falling this fast,
She's got her words for me,
Priority is something I'm not.

And this view from the back burner tells me I'm already too late,
I won't change anything ,
Just for you to come back around and tell me that you found someone new,
'Cause I'm never enough for you.

Oh these memories don't die no they keep me awake at night,
Biting my tongue just to feel how I used to,
When I would follow you down,
I pray that he knows how I keep you awake all night.

And this view from the back burner tells me I'm already too late,
I won't change anything ,
Just for you to come back around and tell me that you found someone new,
'Cause I'm never enough for you.

And now I'm laying on my roof trying to pinpoint what I did this time,
But I'm falling asleep as my eyelids are giving up,
And while I'm clinging to a cigarette I decide we're not that different,
With every breath a little less remains.
And so it goes another sleepless night,
And I'm doing my best to pretend she's in her own bed,
And so it goes another sleepless night,
And I'm doing my best to pretend everything's alright.

And this view from the back burner tells me I'm already too late,
I won't change anything ,
Just for you to come back around and tell me that you found someone new,
'Cause I'm never enough for you.
No I'm never enough for you.
Track Name: Don't Tell Me
The stories don't hide anything,
Like the fact that we're all animals,
Living lives with narrow sights,
Do questions keep you up at night?

And I don't think there's anything,
That gives a man a reason,
To take another's life.

And sitting in the pews never helps,
I just smolder and fume 'till I burn myself out,
Is this a trend or tradition?
I won't buy in.

And I don't think there's anything,
That gives a man a reason,
To take another's life.

Why am I the moral criminal?
Why am I in the wrong?
I know nothing and I don't think you do either,
So I'm not sure what makes people think,
That they can tell me how to believe,
I don't you can tell me anything.
Track Name: Growing Apart
Where the Hell did the time go?
And how the Hell are we four years older?
Why is it that the ride home always makes us feel so young?
Tell me you don't remember the tallest thing in the world was your father,
And you could see the whole world from your seat upon his shoulders,
Walking next to your mother with her insisting on holding your hands tight,
You always wanted to do things on your own,
And Mom I'm sorry I ever let go.

If this were my last night in this town,
I'd drive out to all the places where we spent our days,
We've grown out of pretending we're grown up.

This shouldn't come as a surprise to you,
What'd you expect from a mind that you can't change?
I'm not that boy I used to be isn't that the point of growing up?
Can't help but think something's missing,
Can't help but think I clipped my own wings,
'Cause I feel stuck in this cage while my friends are moving on.

If this were my last night in this town,
I'd drive out to all the places where we spent our days,
We've grown out of pretending we're grown up.
If this were my last night in this town,
Just tell me I made you proud to call me your friend,
Don't call it goodbye just don't say anything.

Just don't say anything

If this was our last night
I'd drive out to all the places where we spent our days,
We've grown out of pretending we're grown up.
If this were my last night in this town,
Just tell me I made you proud to call me your friend,
Don't call it goodbye just don't say anything.